Cancer Blog

nothing too exciting toay. had great night last night at Azad meet. Randy and Arri called. I joked with them that my mom said, "If you're gonna die do it fast so you don't mess up Christmas." I also said: "I'm scared I'm going to lose my hair." Went to Chruch and Jacob came with his parents. It was really good. this is the second time he brought his parents after I went to Randy's house and ate dinner. Then Ed came by. He too is having to go do biopsy about cancer for prostate cancer.

Mom sent me this message. It hurts. For two days I have found a pain on my right side right beneath my ribs Background continued: I want to write about the next day as it was a little sentimental... I think after Ed got my message: on 9/20; Hi Ed. How are you? Ed I really need to talk to Dr. Doug. Do you know how I can reach him? Ed sent me back the message 9/21 Hi Steve..Our team is in Thailand we leave for Cambodia on Saturday home October 29. Ed called me the next morning, I am not sure exactly the day but Shadi was here. I was sitting on the couch on the left hand side watching FoxNews like I usually do. I started telling Ed about the colonoscopy and what I was told by the doctors. Ed was very sympathetic. He told some people and I got a few calls that day...One of the guys who called was Michael in Irvine and John from Costa Mesa. That morning I went with Randy to the mens meeting at Rock Church the Pastor spoke. It was very good. Then I went to Azad's mee...

Went to oncologist today. This is first visit to oncologist a little pretty Oriental lady who was very vivacious and articulate. Maybe that's part of the job. I was tested by a kid who asked me how happy I was or depressed etc. Then I was taken to the room with the big chair with the paper on it. The paper was apparently used so the guy told me I could sit on any chair. The Dr. came in and was very nice. She asked me why I got a colonoscopy and everything. Then she told me what was going to happen. She didn't know the Biopsy results if the growth is cancerous or not. But she said regardless the growth must be removed. This was when I started crying. She told me that the growth was big, likely too big to be removed easily and might need to be shrunk first by chemo. I started crying. I wore my glasses and I remember them getting wet. She started saying: Don't cry and put her hand on my shoulder. I said I'm OK. She said that while we wait we need to move fast. T...