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Sunday - not trusting my feelings

i'm not trusting my feelings now. i don't know if they're exhausted from the roller coaster of the last few days or what. but i feel myself nearing empty. that's not necessarily a bad place as it often leads me back to the Holy Spirit's presence inside me.

I loved what Ravi Zacharia said today Jesus was greater than the Temple; greater than Jonah; Greater than Solomon


The Temple sets up rituals and ways to approach God but has no arms to hold you and embrace you

Jonah had a great successful ministry but hated those he was sent to minister to

Solomon had the greatest wisdom and was the greatest failure to live up to those standards. He didn't inarnate the word.

the lonliness of singleness. no kids no wife but a peace within.

feeling odd an akward

Bryan. I just sent him a message.

It's like that empty place I felt a couple of times along this route. i don't know if its depression but its near empty.

guilt, disappointment, joy, fear of myself, peace, anger, blahs

watched a littel Foxnews. Still feeling a little depressed -- bottoming out


spoke to Kato and Bryan about going to lunch we will meet tomorrow at Lemonade in H.B. at 1230

then I talked to Tommy. as i spoke to him i realized how great a miracle God did for me. i laughed

then i watched the freddie mercury movie was pretty good except for gay stuff

but it wasn't that obvious

then I talked to Hamdi that was such a blessing



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