Went to church with Shadi and Pastor Khalil last night. Lydia Shadeed was singing leading worship. Then a preacher from Egypt I'm not sure who he was spoke. It was good kind of fire and brimestone sermon
Lydia was very nice to me later. SAid "You come here."
Pastor Khalil gave me 40 dollars. I'm not sure why. IT was ncie. He asked me to share my testimony in teh car. I told him.
Saw Magdi and Fibi and Bassaam
Am home now looking for a new home. Thinking of clearing out my car to start moving stuff in
saw Jason's food giveaway in Oaklahoma. feeling a bit useless in teh face of it
may go to Andrews church tonight. they asked me once to be youth pastor there or another church he was at.
I spent three days in PHoenix. Susu seemed mad at me or possibly just mad. She's at that age. they asked me to consider moving there so I could be around kids and stuff as I'm going thorugh these health issues.
I talked with Najat who said dad was laughing. I think he was happy that I called
feeling like a leaf in the wind a little
Am looking for a new home. This makes me feel a little bit like the loser I am. I have no wife, kids,home, retirement. I'm a smart guy. Not stupid maybe a bit lazy.
am feeling the peaceful river inside of me as i write this
i know I'm not alone.
was getting angry about teh whole thing of being asked to leave and then i got a package from teh witness lee radio program with their study bible
one of the papers with it read "Is Jesus in Your Boat?"
This hailed back to all the other "storm andS waves" things that I've been hearing since I was asked to leave here.
Shadi has been acting as if nothing's wrong. He sees nothing wrong in asking me to leave. I don't want to push it.
Is Jesus in YOur Boat.
At church last night I felt real backslidden as they started singing and everything. the stuff I've been doing seems so wrong in light of their wholesmoeness
I feel peace in spite of the waves around me.
I'll do my laundry tonight
Father, this situation makes me feel small and insignificant. I'm ashamed that this is all I have to show for the life You've given me. It's like I get to see my worth in times like these. I feel so small. My pride and conceit get a nice whack across the face and I'm reduced to size. I almost don't want to say reduced becuase that implies it was bigger and made smaller. Its really just a shame. I'm almost 60 years old Father. I wish I would have refused the 40 dollars from Pastor Khalil yesterday. Maybe next time I will.
Is it time to get a real job?
Whenver I think this I start wondering about how I . will be leaving the minsitry. Jason always sayd that he and I are the only two who have continued in ministry of our class.
I feel peace in spite of the waves around me
Lydia was very nice to me later. SAid "You come here."
Pastor Khalil gave me 40 dollars. I'm not sure why. IT was ncie. He asked me to share my testimony in teh car. I told him.
Saw Magdi and Fibi and Bassaam
Am home now looking for a new home. Thinking of clearing out my car to start moving stuff in
saw Jason's food giveaway in Oaklahoma. feeling a bit useless in teh face of it
may go to Andrews church tonight. they asked me once to be youth pastor there or another church he was at.
I spent three days in PHoenix. Susu seemed mad at me or possibly just mad. She's at that age. they asked me to consider moving there so I could be around kids and stuff as I'm going thorugh these health issues.
I talked with Najat who said dad was laughing. I think he was happy that I called
feeling like a leaf in the wind a little
Am looking for a new home. This makes me feel a little bit like the loser I am. I have no wife, kids,home, retirement. I'm a smart guy. Not stupid maybe a bit lazy.
am feeling the peaceful river inside of me as i write this
i know I'm not alone.
was getting angry about teh whole thing of being asked to leave and then i got a package from teh witness lee radio program with their study bible
one of the papers with it read "Is Jesus in Your Boat?"
This hailed back to all the other "storm andS waves" things that I've been hearing since I was asked to leave here.
Shadi has been acting as if nothing's wrong. He sees nothing wrong in asking me to leave. I don't want to push it.
Is Jesus in YOur Boat.
At church last night I felt real backslidden as they started singing and everything. the stuff I've been doing seems so wrong in light of their wholesmoeness
I feel peace in spite of the waves around me.
I'll do my laundry tonight
Father, this situation makes me feel small and insignificant. I'm ashamed that this is all I have to show for the life You've given me. It's like I get to see my worth in times like these. I feel so small. My pride and conceit get a nice whack across the face and I'm reduced to size. I almost don't want to say reduced becuase that implies it was bigger and made smaller. Its really just a shame. I'm almost 60 years old Father. I wish I would have refused the 40 dollars from Pastor Khalil yesterday. Maybe next time I will.
Is it time to get a real job?
Whenver I think this I start wondering about how I . will be leaving the minsitry. Jason always sayd that he and I are the only two who have continued in ministry of our class.
I feel peace in spite of the waves around me
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