Tuesday after Monday before Wednesday ---moving out day

went to Bogarts was great -- I did Jesus died 4 rockers 2

Day You came into my life too

both well received

whittle was there and so waas Feter

Just moved all my stuff out to the car, barely fits.

The last time  I did this was when I had to go the Holy Land for Dad and put all my stuff in the car the night before I had to leave and I left the car at Ed's house for I think five months. Yes five months. I came back and stayed with Shadi about a week or so and then his sister came.

I went to a hotel for several days and found the place in Buena Park. Nice at first but then......
Oh well.

I stayed there a while then moved in with Hani for a few months. At first was hard with his cousin. I felt like his sons didn't like me at first but that changed with time.

Then I had to move on. I went to Skip Cristendon's house in Garden Grove. IT was nice set up. Shared bathroom but it was all Christian guys. It was nice. The kitchen was set up nice and everything with shelf space and fridge space and it was close to Al Fady where I used to go all the time.

Then Shadi asked me to come here. His mother was here at the time. We talked about it. I felt pushed down a couple of time and knew it wouldn't be good but I still did it.

His mother was very clear about their intentions;
1. Is it OK if I am here?
2. Is it OK if I take the big room?
3. Don't bring Muslims please.

I agreed knowing I wouldn't be comfortable. I thought about the black guy who lived with Shadi and how he would always go into his room and not socialize with them.

that kind of became an excuse I think in my mind.

By the second day I had changed. I wasn't nice anymore. I didn't like coming home and having people here I didn't know.
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She felt it. Within a few weeks I had to go to the Holy Land. Shadi let me park in the covered spot for the time I was there.

I was there three months. Jacob came and took me there

I came back and it was me and Shadi. everything was fine.

Then one time  I went to see my mom and came back and his mom was here. I was rude.


I don't like how I was. Why was I like that?

Is it misogyny from me. Am I a misonginist

I had no troble when Shadi's friend a man or his brother stayed here. Just the mother.


Anyway there are priorities and the mother wants to come back. She gets absolute priority and I have no problem with it. Well I do a little since I have to leave to make room for her
But it's OK

Anyway I wrote already about when Shadi asked me to leave and how God came to the rescue. It was a great rescue with the storm and boat and Jesus in the Boat over and over again. God really carried me through this.

There was also the whole cancer thing.

BTW my appointment is tomorrow with Dr. Bui. Dr. Tamani wants to go with me....

Junior is really making the place nice.

I'm sitting here on the rug. A bottle of water on my right. My black backpack with three big Bible in it on the right. a rew odds and ends scattered on the floor: checkbook, keys, two batteries, toothpaste, deoderant, computer case. Cross on lamp, cross from JErusalem necklace on lamp too.


Tomorrows thursday. I have program but don't know how I will do it because my doctor's appot. is at 330

I have the song The Damage is Done by foreigner on my mind. I bought Foreigner's first album on New Years Eve from the GNC by Ed's house.

was great NEw years Eve.

everything is in the car now except a few things so i can sleep here tonight. I have more stuff than I thought
the mattress i think is the hardest part

shadi came home and said "I'm sorry it didn't work out." He seems sad. He said the other day that he'd miss me.

I've been good. I haven't been the jerk I can be. Thank You Father.