Cancer Blog

i was called by the endorectal folks and my appointment is tomorrow at 1. i have to be at the facility by 12. will be sedated i have to go get the clear liquid to drink and only have broths and stuff like that tonight i'm not sure why but the lady told me that my case was marked "urgent" was it because i wanted to get it done before the meet with the surgeon just watched a Tina Turner interview she apparently had part of her colon cut out for being cancerous i'm feeling peace jsut got message from Hazem. His oldest brother died of heart attack went got haircut and got my mixture from CVS came home and tonight is halloween and i went back to store and bought candy from Target at 6 pm i'm supposed to start drinking the stuff to cleanse me Roisin is going to take me to the hospital tomorrow Dwayne is going to bring me home Talked to Randy he's pretty shook up. His father is in hospice care sent home to die. he was pretty shook up. Fe...

Since the first days I knew about this possible cancer thing I've fallen back in love with this album by Servant, specifically the song Sudden Death. I cried and cried as I listnened to it. Interesting story. Apparently Servant the band was part of a Christian community. During their recording of the album World of Sand, there was an accident in which three young men of the community were killed in a terrible head on crash. That is the story of the song "going to a dump and gertting in crash." Wikileaks says that the song "Sudden Death" was written by three members of Servant. Then the song Come Jesus Come concludes what wiki calls "catharsis". https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-kiKeyd-rKE https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sS5zQQKeuC8 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PuqT8sV-TK0

wrote a new song "Johnny" Got great reaction at Bogarts in Seal Beach, first time in long time. A guy named Tim came up and said it was a powerful song. A Jewish lady came up and asked about song. She said she doesn't know Chrsitianity so seh didn't know the end line "Inasmuch as you've done to the least," but Tim expalined it to her. Was going to do werewolves of london with xxx but ran out of time went to alfady and got videos ready for Thursday. will do zakir naik episode Roisin called and asked about me and talked to me a long time. She prayed for me. God sends angels as you need. one of the great friends of late has been Michael too. He just wants to rock n roll. but always is very supprotivie of my music. Even though he's Muslim he tells me God has a purpose for my life to spread His message. 😄

I got up early and sat with computer planning for 1:30 p.m. appointment at surgeon's -- I talked already with Ghassan, Hazem, Muin (Khan Younis), Sami Sabbagh so far today. Around 830 a.m. I got a call from Jennifer, very gracious she told me that my authorizaiton came through and she sent everything to UCI and a nurse will call me when things are ready. whew, so relieved Sami called and prayed for me and encouraged me. He is precious sincere hard working brother When to surgeon at the hospital, two oriental doctors... one stuck his finger and twisted hard 9 months I asked the doctor how long this is going to take If cancer, which finger dotor told me, two months chemo, two month recovery, the surgery and then the recovery which will include time of having a bag he said these words "we can save the anus" things don't seem as set in concrete as it seems there seemed some disagreemtn between them about what i should do next -- go to o...

I went to Magnolia Baptist Church in case Dr. Ahmed came -- he didn't  sweet day after Church I went to lunch with Dwayne and Rhonda and then I went home with them and wrote a song based on Pastor Jereny's sermon about "you saw Me hungry....." afterwards I went to church at Cottonwood. It was sweet. and Ed and Elaine came. It was nice and then we went to Carl's Junior and talked for a long time. they won the case in Idaho which is great. Sami Sabbagh texted me too. Randy also called coming back from Phoenix. His dad has a kind of luekemia. He is suffering not expected to make it. He is a believer.

there is an active shooter at the Tree of Life Synagogue in Pittsburgh, PA. According to Foxnews there are several fatalities. the suspect is in custody haaretz says there are seven dead Jpost not reporting number 4 dead and 4 3 officers shot multiple causalties eight dead including a cop the shooter is Robert Bowers who quotes scriptures wrongly, hates Jews and hates donald trump felt kind of bad for teh Jewish kid who always writes on my page. I offered condolences to him after teh synagogue shooting. He raged on me a little and then apologized by saying he needs to talk to me because im the only trump supporter he knows

woke up super early today had KFC for late late night snack as I watched Talullah Bankhead on I Love Lucy It's 6:30 now. I'm sitting the sofa of the living room with a cup of Cafe o Lait, (coffee with milk and sugar the Brazilian way) Today I hope my authroizatoin comes through so I can plan for ultrasound this weekend or today Before I call the doctors or anything I wanted to list here the songs I have written since being aware that I might have cancer. I usually introduce them as: A song about a guy who finds out he has cancer: 2 close 2 the edge Gotta Know the One How Many Times at 9:03 I called the oncology institute about the authorization and was transferred to a woman named Susan who didn't answer I got her answering machine. I left my number and hope she will call back. i didn't get much done today but i did update the list of completed videos for FZ i'm starting to fill in teh gaps in went wiht Jaleel to his church...